Will I have more fun?

Before you look at these pictures I feel like I need to explain to you why I did it. It's silly that I feel like I need to justify myself, but here goes...

I have had a hate/hate relationship with my hair since I was in 3rd grade. That's when my mother had my long thick hair cut into a pixie cut. The problem was that I didn't have the right kind of hair for a pixie - it was coarse, thick and curly. It was a mess. I grew up never knowing what to do with it. What I longed for was straight, shiny blonde locks. We always want what we don't have.

So, was it karma when I woke up in the hospital and found my pillow covered with my curls? My hair has been thinning for a while now I assume because of lupus. I had been using women's rogaine and special shampoos for years, but nothing seemed to make a difference. One of the possible benefits I was going to experience by taking the Benlysta infusions was hair regrowth. Well, I guess I wan't on Benlysta long enough for that to happen and after all the trauma that my body has been through recently, my hair fell out. I wasn't totally bald, but my hair fell out in big patches all over the crown of my head. 

When I got home from the hospital I asked Ron to use the clippers on me to cut off the remaining hair and make it really short. He declined - he was afraid to "mess it up!" Isn't that funny?! So I ended up asking my friend Denise (who is a hairdresser/stylist/colorist) to cut my hair off. At the time I had only been out of the hospital for a couple days so she came to my house to help me out. She cut my hair SHORT just like I asked her to. After all, it's only hair, right?

SHORT!

With encouragement from jb, Mandi, Beckie, Leah and Denise and patient tolerance from Ron, I decided that this is probably the only time in my life that I would be brave enough to try something so extreme. Last night I went to the salon and Denise bleached my hair. It's not quite the blonde that I had imagined, but more a goldish color. I do like it, but when I saw myself in the mirror this morning I was surprised - I had forgotten! So here I am, not quite a blonde but having lots of fun ...

Ron says he likes it, but he loves me. When it's time to color again in about a month, I may opt for another color...maybe royal blue or purple or orange! Relax, it's only hair!